I dunno, maybe it's kinda better if you forget some of it? It all pretty much sucked. I couldn't really feel anything either, and my head gets all funny when I change into whatever that monster is, but I remember that much.
( wow thanks dude! oh well, if he's up talking shit that means he survived and that's all he actually cares about. )
Psh... well, I might've been the last time he saw me. I really thought I was gonna stay like that, too.
Well, even if you did, you'd still have all us to look out for you. But I think not having thumbs would be pretty hard.
[Thumbs, man. They useful. After a pause, there's the sound of him dumping all that broken-ass ceramic stuff someplace. Man, gonna have to get Kratos a new bowl.]
I also called 'cause I wanted to ask... I mean, not right away, since things have been weird. But when we're back up to it. Were you... gonna keep doing that meditation teaching thing?
( a slight pause. that's... a weird and fucky thought, actually being a dogmonster forever, but nice to hear he'd be accepted either way. like, you want to think it's a given, but it's nice when someone says it, y'know. )
Ah, thanks, Lloyd. I really hope it doesn't ever come to that, though.
( seeing/smelling people with your tongue is pretty awkward. )
Oh, yeah, 'course I am. I mean, as long as people are still interested. I do it every single morning anyway, so I might as well—u-uh, well, I haven't done it since the Kiichpan thing, but. Soon, yeah. Did you wanna come to the class?
[Look, his friends turning into Things Not Human isn't a new concept to him. Though. Uh. usually they're at least kinda human? But then Law is asking that, and he's quiet for a moment, trying to think of how to phrase it.]
Well I thought it might... help, I guess.
[Ugh.] I'm still having some... issues. Like in Kiichpan. It's not all the time, but I just-- It's like there's something roaring in my chest, and I get so mad about the dumbest little things, and then something's on fire again, and...
I dunno. I thought all that about focusing and controlling your energies and stuff might help.
Huh... maybe it's some kinda leftover effect from the incense? Or the relic you touched? Or—dunno. But it's worth a shot. I can teach you some breathing exercises and chi-balancing techniques that should help you find your center and give you more control over your astral energy. Not sure if that's the same kind of energy you're using to set stuff on fire, but my other friends who do stuff with fire said it's helped them, so maybe...? It's also just relaxing in general, so there's that.
[Okay Astral energy is like Mana. He can't sense Mana because he just a human-- but maybe he doesn't need to? 'Chi' he has no idea, but sure. He always assumed his 'center' was his bellybutton but you know what he's just gonna stop trying to understand it. He trusts Law.]
I don't really get it, but it sounds like it'll help. Worth a try, at least. When we were fighting that big snake, Viper called it some kind of power, I just didn't think it would stick around.
[SIGH. This sucks.] Yeah. When I get back to Tikal, I'll stop by and give it a try.
( he still has Feelings about these dang coterie leaders after the shenanigans of the last couple of months, but he neither has a full understanding of what even happened back there or what's happened since, so he'll just. leave it at that. )
[He will literally explode. It will be a mess. More of Kratos's things will be ruined. This is probably not an aspect of fatherhood he signed up for. Actually, you know what, fuck itz he's gonna ger started.]
I want to talk to them.
Like obviously Eagle doesn't care about anyone, he basically said right out that he just wants to be listened to, and likes to pretend he cares about what anyone has to say. And then Viper lit the whole place up before telling anyone anything if those Vipers we ran into in Kiichpan were right. Didn't even want to check kn her city it was just the--
[SOMETHING ELSE BREAKING NOISE?? goddamn he's a disaster right now. At least that distracts him from the tirade.]
Ah, damn it. ...Nah, I'm in Coatepec. Kratos brought me to his place while I was all weird.
[...Man, he hates this. And feels like an idiot every time, one that initially flare up starts to fade. And so he just nods, uselessly since they're chatting over the medallions.]
Yeah. Yeah, you're right. He's been doing a lot for me already, though, so I can put some on... Sophia will probably want some, too.
Sophia's there, too? Yeah, definitely have some tea with her. She's really cool. Maybe she can help keep you chilled out by, uh, talking about stuff. She knows pretty much everything, she can probably find something interesting to teach you so you're distracted from everything... until you're ready to head back to Tikal. Then I'll get you sorted out for sure.
( injecting some extra optimism in there, to... hopefully make him feel better. )
Yeah... She's been staying here since her place in Kiichpan is gone, and she and Kratos are pretty good friends. I should probably talk to her more once I figure out more of what's going on.
[Ugh this is all so weird. Being an empty husk for like a week is so fucky.]
Maybe she can teach me that game she plays with Kratos with all the little figures. [It's fuckin' chess, bro]
( he's lucky he slept through most of that. the parts he didn't sleep through he has almost no memory of anyway. )
Figures? Oh, are they like... little... I think I know what you're talking about. They go on a board with squares on it? And there's like a million rules about what goes where and stuff?
Are there really that many rules about it? But yeah they have these little figurines and all the squares. Man, of course they'd be playing some complicated game instead of checkers or something...
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Date: 2022-01-22 11:29 pm (UTC)( wow thanks dude! oh well, if he's up talking shit that means he survived and that's all he actually cares about. )
Psh... well, I might've been the last time he saw me. I really thought I was gonna stay like that, too.
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Date: 2022-01-22 11:34 pm (UTC)[Thumbs, man. They useful. After a pause, there's the sound of him dumping all that broken-ass ceramic stuff someplace. Man, gonna have to get Kratos a new bowl.]
I also called 'cause I wanted to ask... I mean, not right away, since things have been weird. But when we're back up to it. Were you... gonna keep doing that meditation teaching thing?
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Date: 2022-01-22 11:40 pm (UTC)Ah, thanks, Lloyd. I really hope it doesn't ever come to that, though.
( seeing/smelling people with your tongue is pretty awkward. )
Oh, yeah, 'course I am. I mean, as long as people are still interested. I do it every single morning anyway, so I might as well—u-uh, well, I haven't done it since the Kiichpan thing, but. Soon, yeah. Did you wanna come to the class?
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Date: 2022-01-22 11:45 pm (UTC)Well I thought it might... help, I guess.
[Ugh.] I'm still having some... issues. Like in Kiichpan. It's not all the time, but I just-- It's like there's something roaring in my chest, and I get so mad about the dumbest little things, and then something's on fire again, and...
I dunno. I thought all that about focusing and controlling your energies and stuff might help.
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Date: 2022-01-23 03:37 am (UTC)( unless your name is jinx )
...Well, I think it is at least.
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Date: 2022-01-24 01:17 pm (UTC)I don't really get it, but it sounds like it'll help. Worth a try, at least. When we were fighting that big snake, Viper called it some kind of power, I just didn't think it would stick around.
[SIGH. This sucks.] Yeah. When I get back to Tikal, I'll stop by and give it a try.
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Date: 2022-01-24 05:29 pm (UTC)( he still has Feelings about these dang coterie leaders after the shenanigans of the last couple of months, but he neither has a full understanding of what even happened back there or what's happened since, so he'll just. leave it at that. )
Mm, where are you now? Not still in Kiichpan...?
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Date: 2022-01-24 07:54 pm (UTC)[He will literally explode. It will be a mess. More of Kratos's things will be ruined. This is probably not an aspect of fatherhood he signed up for. Actually, you know what, fuck itz he's gonna ger started.]
I want to talk to them.
Like obviously Eagle doesn't care about anyone, he basically said right out that he just wants to be listened to, and likes to pretend he cares about what anyone has to say. And then Viper lit the whole place up before telling anyone anything if those Vipers we ran into in Kiichpan were right. Didn't even want to check kn her city it was just the--
[SOMETHING ELSE BREAKING NOISE?? goddamn he's a disaster right now. At least that distracts him from the tirade.]
Ah, damn it. ...Nah, I'm in Coatepec. Kratos brought me to his place while I was all weird.
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Date: 2022-01-24 11:57 pm (UTC)I mean, yeah. You're right. They need to answer for all this.
( he is objectively right but also just agree with him so he doesn't keep hulking out... it's okay lloyd... )
But, uh, good, I'm glad you're not alone. Is... Kratos home? Maybe he should make you a tea or something. Just drink a nice, hot tea and relax.
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Date: 2022-01-25 03:15 pm (UTC)Yeah. Yeah, you're right. He's been doing a lot for me already, though, so I can put some on... Sophia will probably want some, too.
I'll let you know when I'm back in Tikal, maybe?
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Date: 2022-01-25 05:45 pm (UTC)( injecting some extra optimism in there, to... hopefully make him feel better. )
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Date: 2022-01-27 02:06 pm (UTC)[Ugh this is all so weird. Being an empty husk for like a week is so fucky.]
Maybe she can teach me that game she plays with Kratos with all the little figures. [It's fuckin' chess, bro]
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Date: 2022-01-27 05:58 pm (UTC)Figures? Oh, are they like... little... I think I know what you're talking about. They go on a board with squares on it? And there's like a million rules about what goes where and stuff?
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Date: 2022-01-28 03:37 pm (UTC)