Wh—no, would you just—I didn't say that either! You're putting words in my mouth! I said exactly what I said and I really don't care how you feel about it right now, so take it however you want.
And instead of clarifying, you decided to lie! How do you think I'm supposed to take it?! I care about you so much, you idiot-- and then you just go ahead and tell me you'd prefer to have died instead, that it would have been better.
Dying fucking sucks.
I've seen you without life in you and I'm not going to see it again.
(because, that's what they were. dead. not a shred of life in them as their bodies moved on brain command only.)
I bet it does suck. So then why is it okay that Ginger died, and not me? She wasn't even a fighter. Somebody cared about her so much, too. I know what I've done, but she didn't do anything except get screwed up by the incense and it isn't fair.
I don't think it's fair, and I was the one who was there, and now I'm the one who has to deal with it, so yeah. I think if it had to be one of us, it should've been me.
(the sound of something heavy breaking, shattering in the background, as she pictures it to be law's head. breathe in, breathe out-- she's even opening her door, going straight to tikal-- but she can't leave silco right now.
breath in, breath out.)
Now who's putting words in whose mouth? I am not saying otherwise for her. So, reverse it! What if she killed you?! You'd leave her with all the guilt, all the feelings you're feeling right now, maybe amplified, considering you're oh, so sound of mind. Dying is fucking easy, Law - it sucks, but it's easy. One moment, and it's gone. Staying that's the shitty part, which is where you are, dealing with all the aftermath.
I've been in your shoes.
So, no. It wouldn't have been better if it were your damn self.
【 he makes a very quiet, unhappy sound through his nose and doesn't respond right away. just doing what he's been doing since he broadcasted, which is pressing something over basically his whole face so the medallion doesn't catch a peep. not that he's really making one anyway. but he sounds fine when he replies. 】
...I'm always the one dealing with the aftermath. Maybe I'm just sick of it.
But... yeah, it wouldn't make any difference, in the end. It's still just a waste of life.
Why do you think I'm... Like this? I get it, I really do. It's never going to get easy, my dude. I use what I've done to make myself stronger, so I think you can, too. Please don't make me beat sense into you. We've fought enough that you know I'll win.
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Date: 2022-03-06 05:02 am (UTC)"Would've been better if it was?!"
I NEED YOU. EVERYONE DOES.
YOU'D JUST LEAVE US THAT EASY?!
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Date: 2022-03-06 05:13 am (UTC)I didn't say that, okay?! Geez, pipe down!
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Date: 2022-03-06 05:17 am (UTC)Oh, so back to the Jinx is crazy theory. Okay, sure, but your voice is not one I typically hear in my head on a daily basis.
I hate liars.
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Date: 2022-03-06 05:21 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-03-06 05:24 am (UTC)(YOU ALSO DID CALL HER CRAZY, JUST REMINDING.)
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Date: 2022-03-06 05:26 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-03-06 05:31 am (UTC)Dying fucking sucks.
I've seen you without life in you and I'm not going to see it again.
(because, that's what they were. dead. not a shred of life in them as their bodies moved on brain command only.)
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Date: 2022-03-06 05:36 am (UTC)I don't think it's fair, and I was the one who was there, and now I'm the one who has to deal with it, so yeah. I think if it had to be one of us, it should've been me.
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Date: 2022-03-06 05:43 am (UTC)breath in, breath out.)
Now who's putting words in whose mouth? I am not saying otherwise for her. So, reverse it! What if she killed you?! You'd leave her with all the guilt, all the feelings you're feeling right now, maybe amplified, considering you're oh, so sound of mind. Dying is fucking easy, Law - it sucks, but it's easy. One moment, and it's gone. Staying that's the shitty part, which is where you are, dealing with all the aftermath.
I've been in your shoes.
So, no. It wouldn't have been better if it were your damn self.
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Date: 2022-03-06 05:50 am (UTC)...I'm always the one dealing with the aftermath. Maybe I'm just sick of it.
But... yeah, it wouldn't make any difference, in the end. It's still just a waste of life.
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Date: 2022-03-06 05:57 am (UTC)(maybe she can pull a laugh out of him.)
Now you get my point.